| I have been wanting to put down an entry since my birthday, but time has evaded me thus far. And the emotions have waned. My 21st was...probably almost exactly what I wanted, small, cozy, intimate, all in all familyish (I know there's no such word) settings, not too much of those center of attention things(well, okay abit...) and I was actually really glad to turn 21. It wasn't like turning 20, that feeling of dread, of getting old, not wanting to celebrate it because of that BIG 2 significance. 21 on the other hand, brought forth a feeling of liberation more than anything. Not that there was any significant change in my life, but it was just this sense of surreal freedom. Can't really describe it anyway. And I realised I have pretty much everything (material) that I need when asked to chose my presents so I'm very thankful for that. Want is a different matter la.... haha.
Steamboat with the girls was great, no I have no pictures but I will remember it as long as my memory serves me. Dinner with the aki people even more unforgettable with the amount of pranks and times they tried to con me over the night (thanks guys, really. I think my heart had a lot of exercise that night) Dinner with denise and weiqi (: Dinner with jc people and the ice cream cake and no freezer (thanks cun for doing everything for me) I think I'm extremely blessed.

Only one photo cos ... haha not a photo person afterall I guess.
Ever since then it's been really stressful design of which I don't really want to have recollection of and emotional turmoil. So I think it's pretty much safe to say my life hasn't been the same since then. Maybe I'm not the same, I think I'm more demanding now ha...ha...ha. But what is life if we don't gloss over the bad parts and concentrate on the good! Feels like exams are over already....after presentation and submission of everything....and exams being next week.... I've only been heading out and watching big bang and other brainless shows. With guys I behave like a guy, go get beers and eat wings and all the unglam shit, and boy was that fun. Since he behaves like both a guy and girl (i.e we be in topshop and he's the one browsing not me) With girls I behave like a girl. Massive retail therapy trawling like ALL of town (thanks sheralyn my butt really hurt the next day thanks to the heels haha) and getting nails painted and buying make up hee~~~~~ I have this feeling I'm avoiding my problems (not that I think it's for me to resolve anyway so it's quite an internal conflict) and hanging out with only who I want to but I'm stuck in this feel good limbo that I want to continue forever.
With my holiday internship settled....shanghai coming up, the only thing I need to settle is exchange. And that's the only kink in my plans for the rest of this year. I really wish Jasper will MOVE HIS DAMN ASS and get things done since lund refuses to settle it directly with me. Have I mentioned, he's useless. sigh. I NEED to go to sweden if not I think I will die from NUS. What with all my friends leaving for london, switzerland, chile, US.... Time to buckle up! Once the exams are overrrrrrr... omg can't wait. lucky smu shitz. K time to study then dinner then....out maybe? HEH HEH HEH LOVE LIFE.
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